When you lose a game or you are dismissed early, the mood is sombre. Numbers matter. OUT ends your play, your dreams of a triumphant walk. Now the long trudge back to the stand when you feel you have let yourself and your team down. There is a blackness. Colours are dulled. Even the greens lose vibrancy. The spectators are a mass of critical individuals against a dark wall of disappointment. Like winning, losing, and your sense of underachievement are part of the game. The painting still keeps you looking and discovering new elements - much like the game. You get hooked to the possibilities. That one day you will achieve that brightness and satisfaction.